Kun Fayakun (it's been a year)

When you came to me unexpectedly

(Thursday night, my living room, 6-8-20)

I know you from long time ago

When we were both young and innocent

When we passed by each other so easily

When we didn't really care about life

We part ways that year you graduate and never had any opportunity to cross path in life

We had lived our life separately, doing our best in whatever we did

You lived your life so magnificently

I looked up to you often

Sometimes, throughout the year we passed by social media

You reach out to me and vice versa

We talked about mundane things

Then we lost contact

Until destiny brings us together again

You were there when I started my new job

I saw you assist your father in his sickbed 

While I stood there as a ward doctor

I never know that time would change our life this abruptly

You keep talking, consulting, and here I help you with anything I could do

Not much, but I tried

Allah took my father to His side first

Then Allah took your father too

We gave each other condolescence and feel each other pain

We were left with grieve and love for the remaining

We thrive to give better environment for our world

And today, one year ago.

Not even one week has passed since we make conversation again

You ask for my hand

You tell my mother to give us blessing

Oh, how I like the way you straightforwardly asking 

You know what?

You're the living embodiment of anything I ever wish for

I hope that you really are the answer to my prayer

The oasis to my neverending desert

You came at the exact time to meet certain decision

I like you not because of what you are, but who you are

With your love for your family, I'm sure that you'll treat me with care

We didn't talk much, we just understand each other without words

May we live together in a blissful marriage life, may we hug each other family in grace and wonder.

Why did you ask when you're not sure?

Why did you make a woman thinking of you when you're not even know what you want her to do?

I thank you so much for never make me ask these kind of question.

Thank you for believing me and let me believe in you.

With love,

Yours.

(6/8/2020 - 6/8/2021)