commitment

A single noun that came from the verb "commit" or "to commit". That is not as simple as it sounds.

Making a commitment is a very big decision in life, we need to think it over and over again before engaging in some kind of intense relationship. Being in a commitment means that we have to fully committed to something/one regardless our similarity or differences. We need to be properly aware of what are we committed into. In my opinion, being in a relationship is the same as going into a war. Hard, of course. But it can also be fun. 

Like in the Act of War, Sun Tzu said that if you know your enemies and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat. If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle.

There are so many questions that you need to ask YOURSELF and your-going-to-be-partner before making a commitment with him. These questions better not come in form of multiple choices, you ought to write an essay and you need to chime in a some very long answer that reveal all things about you and him. As you grow older, the questions will be more varied and deep in case you want to take the commitment to a higher level (aka. marriage).

You will need to come with a thorough interview and ask about thing such as:

"Who is he? What does he did in life? Where does he live or intend to live? Do you like him enough to spend half of your life with him? Does he like you enough to help you get through your life map? How about his relationship with his God? His parents? His siblings? His whole family? Can you tolerate them? Can he tolerate yours? Will he let you keep your job? Will he support your dream? Your hobby? Does he care if you make more than him? et cetera, et cetera."

Wow. That is VERY DEEP indeed, but you need to get through it to be able to make a great comitment. You both need to know about each other before deciding to live together. Because you don't want this to fail, right? One in a lifetime is everyone's dream, so why not try our hardest to make it come through.

So... that's it. Pardon my mushy brain for making this gibberish talk at midnight about something that I haven't even experienced yet, so actually I don't really know it that well. I just really really need to sort out my thought. I need to make everything clear before moving anything further. To walk forward or backward, to continue straight or make a U-turn. I became older as I write this post, maybe soon I will get my own quarter life crisis while living this life as usual. Yeah, I'll just crush it when it comes.

Find some light in the darkness (uncensored-VER)

Hidup itu tidak selalu terang, juga tidak melulu gelap. Hidup adalah mengukir cerita berpola prolog, isi, klimaks, antiklimaks, hingga ke epilog. Hidup adalah kesatuan kompleks linimasa, menjalin kisah dulu, kini, dan nanti.

Begitu banyak yang dirasakan ketia menjalani hidup. Manis pahit asam asin berkelumit menjadi satu. Bagaimana mengolahnya? Semua di tangan kita.

Cerita sudah tertulis, pena sudah diangkat dan lembaran telah kering. Maka jika telah selesai suatu urusan, berusahalah untuk urusan berikutnya. Sesunggungnya Tuhan tidak akan mengubah nasib suatu kaum tanpa mereka sendiri yang berusaha mengubahnya. 

Berjalanlah lurus menuju cahaya di ujung jalan, bukan malah merutuki gelapnya terowongan. Jalan ini masih panjang. Meski terkadang merasa langkah terhalang batu karang, jika dihadapi dengan tenang, bisa jadi sebenarnya itu hanya cangkang kerang. Rintangan-rintangan kecil akan menjadi rekan perjalanan. Hidup tak akan berwarna tanpa beberapa masalah. Percayalah, akan selalu ada hal baik di setiap akhir perjalanan.

(Ini adalah versi tanpa sensor dari kutipan di Instagram)