I dreamt of you again last nite. You, had been my guardian there, just released me from that evil monster. Monster which is came to chase me with his polaroid camera. I don't ever want to know about what he's going to do. I just felt that insecure feeling. When I ran among my friends, he kept on chasing me. I don't even know how could you sit around my friend. I just wanted to go to your side, cause I always know, he wouldn't come if I be there with you.
This is just a repetition of that old scenario. You here is not the same with "you" in the past. Here, I'm afraid if you will ignore me, just like what you have done to me now in the reality. The real "you" in the real story were accepting me with his pleasure, held my hand and always kept me around his arm whether we didn't have any spesial relationship. But the real "you" and you are two different person. You, came around me, gave me some glorious words and acts, but now you are leaving me. Let me alone. Here.
Damnit! You always come to ruin my day!
Okay, it's not truly your fault. Not at all. This is mine. It's all because I love a wrong person in the wrong time and wrong places. How can i wrote wrong places? It's all because I didn;t love you when I just staying in a permanent place, I'm nomadent, so I love you in many wrong places.
Good. See, just because a little trigger about you, I can wrote all of this content out of the context. For your information, I started this post with my memory about my dream last night. Now you see, I've just tell a half story of us.
Why can't I be focus when I'm talking about you? Why? Please tell me.. Please help me.. Please, get me out from this stupidity! Please....
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